SOOOOOO bored at work. I just thought I would check in, since it has been a while. I am at the BP. We've had a total of 2 tows since I have come in, the shop is closed, and I swear EVERYBODY left for the weekend. I have had nothing but regulars, most of them the drunks that live in the area and come in for cigarettes and beer. We are so slow that the tow truck drivers just go home and wait for something to come in. This means I am here all by myself. Nobody to talk to but drunks... oh, and we can't forget the stoners. They like to buy Cigarillos and Zig Zags and act like I don't know what they are up to. I'm not stupid! Anywho. Not much else is going on in my exciting life right now. I am working two jobs, with at average of 1 day a week off completely. I am always tired and tend to feel like poo most of the time (this is mostly due to my HORRIBLE diet of pizza from one job and snack food from the other). Starting next week it will be better, though. I changed my availability at Old Chicago so I don't have to work there in the morning and then bust ass to get to BP in the afternoon. That will give me some days to sleep in during the week.
I am really bummed I didn't go to school this semester. I thought working 2 jobs would help with the bordom. Even though I stay busy, I don't feel like I am doing much that is actually productive. I am not using my brain! My work is mindless! I actually sat down the other day and thought of topics I could research and write about... just for the fun of it! How ridiculous is that?! :)
What else... oh. I finally made an appointment with a therapist. I probably should have done that about a year ago... but I was in denile. My anxiety is getting progressively worse even though I'm still on medication. I know better than most that you can't take care of your issues with just medication (even if it IS a chemical imbalance). I've learned that you must find help with coping skills and talking through whats going on. I see her on Wednesday. We'll see how it goes. I NEED TO FACE MY FEARS!!!
EEEeeeeek!