Why do I scare people? I have been told many times that I am a very intimidating individual upon meeting. Why is this? The short hair (it was really short back in the day), the tattoos, peircings (I don't have those anymore), the lack of shame, or the inability to keep my mouth shut?
I remember being at this get together after high school. You really couldn't call it a "party", there were only 5 or 6 people there. I was playing pool with this buy I went to high school with, and kicking his butt at it. He was mister hot shot in high school. He played football, worked out all the time, was SUPER CUTE, and was a complete jackass. So, our conversation during our time at the pool table was probably the first real conversation we have ever had. He said to me, "You have changed a LOT since high school!" What? What did he mean? I asked and he responded with, "Well, you always walked around like you were looking to kill somebody in school. I was afraid you were going to burn me with your cigarette." HA! Thats funny.
I've realized since then, that I put on this rough exterior around people I don't know well. I act tough, act like I don't care. The truth is, I am big, huge sissy on the inside. I am just like you. I get my feelings hurt, I cry sometimes, and I sometimes DO care what you think. I am not sure what brought this on with me. I don't know why I have to put on a protective layer.
When you take a second to get to know me, or get beyond that layer, I am a really nice person! I swear! I promise I wont burn you with my cigarette, and I don't bite!
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